From WorthyofLove who shared about her husband’s old text messages a few weeks ago…
Wow! I just had serious lightbulb…..and your name kept popping in my head so I just know I need to share it with you! God has been working on my heart much deeper these days since I last shared in your “Share about Your Journey” post!
I became very discontented, and I started expecting things from my husband again, and things got seriously out of hand for about a month. But I did something I should have done a long time ago—I sought a counselor and began meeting with her and just trying to dig deeper into my heart. She first lead me to a book called “Captivating: Unveiling the Mystery of a Woman’s Soul” by Stasi and John Eldredge, who also wrote the book “Wild and Heart” which is all about a man’s soul.
There is one part in it that caught my eye – my spiritual eye – about how true beauty is a heart at rest and at peace in the Lord…one that trusts fully in Him and one that does not give way to fear. You already know because I’ve read it on your blog posts before 🙂 BUT, my heart SAW it for the first time reading this book and then this realization lead me to seek out also the meaning of having Christ within – having Christ as my true heart’s satisfaction – and about how He is our source of life within.
Well here I was recently, researching this and just seeking God about it – to know Him and what this means for me – when my husband decided to pick a David Wilkerson sermon for us to listen to together and he picked one on contentment! (TOTALLY GOD LEADING ME THROUGH MY HUSBAND!) We listen to it and Wilkerson starts referencing this book called “The Rare Jewel of Christian Contentment” by Jeremiah Burroughs….. it was written in like 1645, when there was a major falling apart of the Church and people losing all they owned and people were just in turmoil everywhere. This man Jeremiah heard from God and he wrote this book and so I of course found it online (FREE!), and began reading immediately.
My jaw dropped as I read over and over the message and confirmation that:
a soul which has the capacity to commune and know God WILL NEVER BE SATISFIED EXCEPT BY GOD HIMSELF!!!!!
And on and on he talks about contentment, how it is LEARNED, how Christ teaches us it and the whole while I’m thinking of you, because I know that this is what you have learned in your journey. You have learned it and it has changed you!!! And it is the key to true heart rest!!!!
So I came to this point in the book where he talks about how the devil comes to those hearts that are DISCONTENTED, and tempts them, because it is the heart that is unhappy with whatever he has, or does not have, or what he wants, etc….it is that heart that will be easily tempted to sin in order to get what it wants!!!!!
Is this not the main issue in marriages?? Pride being the first—which is ultimately (sinful) SELF-love—and it breads this discontentment. It leads to all the strife, complaints, and just the miserable condition of the soul and heart!!!! And I thought— wow…… if women could see this! It is also in James where he talks about how when we are tempted we are drawn away by our own lusts (or sinful desires)!!
OUR OWN LUSTS—e.g WHATEVER IS MAKING US DISCONTENTED BECAUSE WE DONT HAVE WHAT WE WANT!
I see it now…I SEE! I was blind but now I see!!!
When I am content with having Jesus within me – satisfied with God – when I realize that yes He is the ONLY One who can satisfy my heart – I am at true rest, true peace….and I am content!:)
If you have not read this Rare Jewel book, I reccommend it to you, the Holy Spirit will confirm in your heart all the work He has done in you:)
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