A guest post from Kayla at www.lessonsofmercy.wordpress.com – THANK YOU for sharing what God is working on with you. I LOVE this post!
Relent: What is the definition exactly?
1.) to soften in feeling, temper, or determination; become more mild, compassionate, or forgiving.
2.) to become less severe; slacken
So if I say “God WON’T relent until He has every. single. part. of me”, what am I saying?
God won’t lose his burning feelings for me no matter if I resist. He won’t for one second back off in His determination to break me of ME. He won’t change in His feelings of compassion or forgiveness and just start “allowing” my sin because I don’t want to give it up. He isn’t going to be less severe with His judgment against my stubborn heart.
Do you get that tonight?
That’s seriously incredible friends. How many times does a friend have to spit in your face, deny you, question you, sin against you before you relent from them and move on?
I know for me tonight… God has dealt with me on some issues so many times, I’m embarrassed to say what I still struggle with because for crying out loud.. LEARN MY LESSON already!
And here God is tonight, showing up, pounding on my heart, getting resources in my hands, getting music in my ears that breaks me in ways I have never wanted anyone to know I need broken. Not even my husband- my best friend- who knows 99% of everything.
I talked about Nancy Leigh DeMoss’s book “Brokenness” on the blog before. Let me share with you just a small little section of what I read tonight in her book on page 96-97.
“You see, though some of us may never blatantly defy God by committing adultery or embezzling money from the church or committing some other egregious sin, all it takes for me – or for you – to get into a position where God is forced to resist us is to refuse to humble ourselves and be broken before Him in one “little” matter. God always resists the proud – whether that proud person is a blasphemer or an adulterer, or a pastor or a home-schooling Mom.”
I have some “little” things. Especially one in particular. I have to deal with this. I can’t not deal with this… God won’t relent. He won’t stop. And I won’t stop fighting the battle until *I* surrender.
I’m going to share my new FAVORITE song. It isn’t new… but it’s new to me.
It is long… but worth it. And there are some sections you don’t want to miss.
My favorite line is as follows:
I don’t want to talk about You, like You’re not in the room. I want to look right at You, I want to sing right to You.