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God Is Asking Me to Do Something HARD – but Good!

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I spent some time over the past month praying, asking God what was blocking me from growing more in my faith. I know there are so many more things God wants to show me and that my faith could be much stronger. It is a question I want to ask myself and the Lord every so often. He showed me that I have been too distracted. Like – WAY too distracted. Mostly by comments and emails related to ministry stuff – I can easily spend about 2 hours per day, 7 days per week on that. And I often check comments and emails multiple times an hour. Ack! I am addicted!

So God is asking me to do something different. At least for a time.

He is asking me to give up my comment section on my blogs and my ministry-related emails for Lent.

This year Lent runs from 2-14-18 through 3-28-18. I have never really observed Lent before. But the Lord has made it clear to me that He wants to take me much deeper with Him. He is saying to me:

“Come away with Me and rest for awhile.”

Well, my precious sisters (and brothers), I can’t possibly turn down an invitation like that from my Lord! How sweet that He wants me to Himself for a bit. And that the time starts on Valentine’s Day. I want to always be willing to drop anything for Him. If I am not doing things His way, and not depending on His power, any ministry I do will be worthless.

And now, with it being about 6 weeks until the launch of The Peaceful Mom book and with all He wants to do in my life, my ministry, my own church, this ministry, the church as a whole, and in America – He is calling me to 40 days of fasting from online ministry connections.

Honestly, this is really hard! It’s painful. And – a bit anxiety-producing, at first. (Which just proved to me that I really am way too addicted to constantly checking my messages.) I’m awful at resting and slowing down. But I definitely see that I need this. And I want to take this big step with the Lord.

I love all of you, my readers. You are very dear to me. I feel so connected to you and love to be here with you and be here for you. I love the interaction, love, camaraderie, and fellowship we share here.

Some questions began to pop into my mind:

  • What if my readers need me?
  • What if they feel abandoned?
  • What if they can’t find what they need on my site?
  • What if this hurts my ministry to them? Forty days is a long time!
  • What if people quit reading my blog because I am not available for 6 weeks?
  • What if it hurts my book launch on March 27th?


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Of course, God had some really amazing answers for me:

  • Your readers are My precious lambs. I am holding them in my arms. They are Mine first. I will never leave them or forsake them. Even if you take a break that I want you to take. I will take care of them.
  • “I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life” – John 14:6. As they seek Me first, they will find everything they need.
  • I’ve got them. You have left plenty of still water and green grass all over your sites for them to eat. I’ll help them find what they need on your sites and – most of all – in My Word.
  • You are exalting yourself way too much, April. Watch that pride! They really don’t need your advice and personal counsel. They need Me. My Spirit, My truth, My wisdom, My Word, and My power.
  • I’m going to show you that I can bless your ministry even if the comments are closed. I can use this site even if you aren’t there to answer comments every day for an extended period of time. I am the key here. Not you.
  • I want and deserve your full, undivided attention.
  • You need to rest in me and be still for awhile. I have a lot of things I want to show you. And I want to prepare and equip you for the major things I am about to do that will blow your mind. But I can’t do that if you constantly too busy to stop and listen and fellowship with Me more deeply.
  • The times you grow the most are the times you take a break from ministry for a bit. When you come back filled up with much more of Me, you will share that overflow with your sisters and they will be greatly blessed, too. This will be a win for you and for them.
  • I want you to set them a godly example of how to step back and take a break and be spiritually replenished. Many of them need to do something similar to come away with Me during this time, too.

He wants me to:

  • Be still in Him.
  • Wait on Him.
  • Rest in Him.
  • Soak in His presence.
  • Praise Him.
  • Thank Him.
  • Seek Him more than ever.
  • Receive much more from Him.
  • Soak in His Word and goodness.
  • Allow Him to restore my soul.
  • Listen to His voice more than ever.
  • Be ready to hear His new vision for my ministry going forward.
  • Depend completely on Him, not myself, in ways I have never experienced before.
  • Pray more intently for each of you, my readers, than ever for God to radically transform your lives, your marriages, and your families for His glory by the power of His Spirit.

God revealed to me:

This is the beginning of a big shift I have in store for your ministry. A powerful shift where I am about to do things you will not believe.

In the past 9 years of my journey, I have told God that I wanted to obey ANYTHING He instructed me to do. And that if He ever wanted me to give up anything, I wanted to obey. So I am laying down comments and any kind of ministry emails until 3-29-18. I will still be posting at times, as God leads. But the comments will be closed starting on Valentine’s Day. I just wanted to keep you in the loop! Can’t wait to see all that the Lord wants to do in that 6 weeks and to share with you all again soon.

Much love to each of you!

Comments are still open today and Tuesday. 🙂


24 thoughts on “God Is Asking Me to Do Something HARD – but Good!

  1. It is hard. I am in a similar season, focused on learning and resting in Him while another takes over the functional part of my ministry. You are wise to listen! He knows best. All He has in store for you will be amazing I have no.doubt. Enjoy your time with Him. God bless.

  2. And Samuel said, Hath the Lord as great delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices, as in obeying the voice of the Lord? Behold, to obey is better than sacrifice, and to hearken than the fat of rams.

    1 Samuel 15:22 King James Version (KJV).

  3. April,

    This is my first time posting, but I’ve been following your blog for about a year now. You have blessed me tremendously because you give it straight up no chaser. My husband and I are on the path to restoring our marriage with our Pastor’s help, and your articles have been a great supplement. Today, I am certainly at “Part 1 – Stages of this Journey” – and I am certainly in a season of great conviction and repentance, and like you, I am struggling with the weight of my sin. The more I pray to heal and restore my marriage, the more God shows me… ME. And I just want to run and hide in a cave somewhere.

    Your post led me to comment today – How else would your readers grow, without seeing your struggle. You are providing a great example of obedience, and I thank you for your transparency.


    1. Kourtnei,

      It is such a blessing to hear from you! How I rejoice with you over all that God is doing in your life and in your marriage! WOOHOO! I know this part is painful. What a blessing that God has provided to crucify our old sinful selves and to give us a whole new self and new Spirit in Him. It takes some time to really grapple with things and allow God to help us tear out the yucky stuff and rebuild completely on Jesus and His Word. It requires a lot of patience with ourselves and God and the whole process. But it is a very good process and this leads to Life and healing. I’m so excited for you!

      I have struggled over this issue for awhile now. And I see that I have been depending way too much on me to help my precious sisters. I can’t afford to do that! I’m excited to see what God has in store for all of us. And I am excited to learn more about how to actually rest in the Lord and wait quietly. That does not come naturally to me!

      Much love!

  4. So proud of you April for obeying the voice of God. Through this time of fasting and praying, He will reveal things to you that will benefit the body of Christ. I am excited for the great things that He will do for and through you. Praying for you and with you!

  5. So proud of you April. As I read this, God started speaking to me and reminding me of the things that He has asked me to give up as well. Girl, He had you put so much stuff in here and said you see Jamie, I am talking to you too. The Words Soak and Shift jumped out!!!! God is going to do some amazing things and I cannot wait to hear April. April, God used you almost 2 years ago to save my marriage, April I looked up on Google how to find divorce lawyers and you popes up! Tell me that wasn’t God!!!!!!. So I clicked on your Name and Bammmm!!!!!! I watched about 10 videos in a row, was convicted beyond belief, repented and asked God for His help and He completely restored my broken marriage and showed me so many things that I allowed, that I did and that I was guilty of. Girl, you are such a blessing and truly my Sister in the Lord. I love you Sister and thank you for listening #1 and sharing what God has spoken to you. This was no accident reading your blog today, God laughed and said “Yes I am talking to you too Jamie!” God bless you April, way to Go. God put on my heart, do not listen to the Liar, he will tell you that it was really you who made this all up. He is a liar, obey God and watch out April, something big is going to happen in Jesus Name!!!!!!!!

    1. Jamie Barrera,


      This is such an encouragement to me.

      Thank you very much for sharing what God has done in your life. It is the biggest honor that God was willing to allow me to be a little part of the healing He has done in your life and marriage. PRAISE GOD! He is AMAZING!

      Made me smile to see that God is talking to you, too. 🙂

      Thanks for sharing, my precious sister! This is an exciting time!

  6. I have been going through a mellow, comfortable time. Not really seeing God do a whole lot in my life. This post reminded me that I need to continue to seek him, even though I feel like I’m in a place where I’m comfortable. God would like to show me more, to challenge me to grow. Thanks for the reminder April!

  7. I LOVE this for you, April. Let God take this and give you time to rest. I think it’s so healthy and good! Excited to see other ways in which God will be moving. Enjoy your resting season, sister!

    1. Thanks, Anonymous! Slowing down has been harder than I expected just in the past few days. I can see it is even more necessary than I original thought. I am excited for the chance to rest, refresh in the Lord, listen, and grow in Him. I appreciate the support and encouragement!

  8. Blessings on your time away from this ministry April.

    I have been enjoying the thought of Christ as “King” this last week and the fact that our entire life here is one with an eternal purpose for His kingdom. I’ve been thinking on the general human reluctance to surrender everything to God (even good things) and contrasting that with how much Jesus DELIGHTED to do His Father’s will. He said right from the word go that He must be going about His “Father’s” business.

    I love the thought from Romans 12:1-2 “Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.”

    I also find it easy to ask lots of questions about why things go a certain way and why God calls me to do things that I don’t necessarily understand or want to do at first, but I think these questions come when I am focused on the temporal or “earthly” kingdom. When my focus is on the reality of the kingdom of heaven then things have a different perspective, I can enjoy the good things for what they are and even enjoy the tougher things by knowing that it is all working together for His glory and that I am a part of His kingdom.

    This is why death has no “sting”, this is why Jesus said “take heart, I go to prepare a place for you”, this is why Jesus said “where our treasure is there our hearts are also” etc….my entire purpose here on earth is to enjoy Christ, learn Christ, reflect Christ and be a willing, obedient worker in building God’s heavenly kingdom, any temporal things aren’t the primary goal.

    In the same way, if God is calling you to step away from your ministry here then there is a purpose for that call!

    Ephesians 3:20-21 “Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.”

    In Him, HF

    1. HF,
      Thank you so much for the wonderful insights and encouragement. That is beautiful.

      I know that there are many purposes for this – and that they are all very good. As much as it is hard for me to do this, it is also very necessary and good.

  9. I absolutely love your blog! I don’t think I’ve commented before and I am at work right now, so I can’t write much, but your Biblical guidance written with such a sweet, Christ-like spirit, has really helped me. God bless your sabbatical.

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