Our kitten, Silver, is still missing – he has been missing since Friday morning. I have only had about 3 hours of sleep in the past 48 hours. Our bedroom is near the front porch and I have food out for Silver in case he comes back. Every little sound, I hear, I jump up to open the door and see if he is outside. I just have to check. How can I not? For years, we thought we couldn’t have pets because of our children’s allergies. But they are not allergic to Silver. He is such a blessing!
We all love this little guy so much. It has been a sad two days at our house. The house feels empty.
I really wish there was some kind of K-9 search and rescue unit available for missing pets in this area!
Greg and the children have worked VERY hard looking for Silver with me and trying to find him. I am so thankful that I have each of them and that we get to be a team and have each other to love. It has been amazing to think of the blessings we have and how precious today is with my husband and children and to rehearse so many good things God has done and so many good gifts He has given (Philippians 4:4-8 is such a precious passage to me in difficult times).
Greg has been in the woods, under the house 2 times, all over the neighborhood countless times, all over the inside of the house so many times and has tirelessly searched and helped me with some of the online stuff we could do. The children have helped us comb neighbors’ yards in the daylight many times and in the evening with flashlights. I go out at night multiple times calling for him and looking with a flashlight. Every time I break down in sobs, Greg has held me close and rubbed my back, even in the middle of the night. He wants me to try to get more sleep tonight for some reason. 🙂
- I just decided to make myself some scrambled eggs – and got out a cookie sheet to cook them on. Yep. I think Greg was right that I need to take a nap! Brain is not working!
I am going to take a blogging break, hopefully just for a few days or a week or so. I appreciate y’all being understanding about that I may just not be able to get to comments or write posts for a little bit.
I know that God knew this test would come for us, and that it had to pass through His sovereign, loving hands before this pain could touch us. I know that God’s motives toward us are always good. I am so thankful for God’s sovereignty! What a blessing! What a source of peace and comfort in the midst of the unknown. I want to absorb every drop of the spiritual treasure that He has for me in this!
Practicing resting in God’s peace, love and sovereignty in the midst of uncertainty is such a faith-building experience. I am thankful for that.
– Will our greatest fears come true?
I don’t know yet.
– Is God still good and can I still trust Him to take us through it if the “worst case scenario” were to happen?
It would hurt. But God is still good and I will still trust Him. I can still cling to His peace and joy even as my heart aches.
– Might God do a miracle for us and return Silver to us in full health?
Maybe. That would sure be amazing. 🙂
But whether I receive the outcome I want or not – I will trust Him. I will sing praises to Him. And I will love Him with all my heart – anticipating with wide-eyed wonder what His plans might be.
I am excited to see all the good God plans to bring from this. I am also very sad right now – working through my own emotions, spending time in prayer, attempting to sleep and trying to support and love Greg and help our children process their feelings, too. It is sad enough to lose a sweet pet that I love dearly – but to see our children hurting so much is also very painful for a Mama’s heart!
Please pray that I might be sensitive to God’s Spirit and that He might speak and love our children and Greg through me – that I might be a godly wife and mom in the midst of this little family trial and that I might point our precious children to greater faith, to understand God’s heart and mind more, to experience God’s provision, to seek His wisdom, to learn the power of prayer and holding results loosely in our hands, trusting God with the outcome. Please pray that we might learn all that God desires us to learn right now, that we would be open and sensitive and pliable to His Spirit.
I am praising and thanking God for what He has done in our lives, what He is doing that we cannot begin to see or understand and what He will do! I am so thankful for the chance to know Silver. Our lives are much richer for him being here with us.
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