I spent a lot of time here – in my quiet time place – during my break 🙂
The past month was a much needed time of rest for me. I appreciate your patience, understanding and support as I unplugged from the blog, FB and emails and really focused on God, Greg and our children.
The first few days were a bit rough! I have been posting almost every single day on my blog for 2.5 years. So, I think I was in a bit of withdrawal for awhile. The blog had taken over my life! It was HARD to set it down. Yikes! Blog addiction!!?!? I knew that was what God wanted me to do and I needed to do for my own spiritual, emotional, physical and mental health as well as for our marriage and for our children.
I had to really focus on being still, not rushing ahead of Greg or God, just being still. That was God’s clear assignment for me.
I even took my Twitter, Facebook and WordPress apps off of my cell phone and my tablet. That was a good thing.
I noticed some things changing in our schedule and in my priorities as I embraced the blogging/social media/emailing break:
- I got into bed earlier and Greg and I had a lot more time for talking, connecting, intimacy and relaxing together.
- I stayed in bed longer in the mornings with Greg.
- I slept more! WOOHOO! (I struggle with chronic insomnia, so that was such a gift!)
- I got to be more plugged in as a wife and mom.
- I kept the house a good bit more organized and orderly.
- I spent a lot of time in God’s Word and in prayer.
- I didn’t feel as rushed mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually. I really felt like I was able to slow way down..
- I didn’t feel as rushed with God. I needed that! I needed that time with God so much! I need that every day.
I can’t tell you what a joy this blog and ministry has been for me. It amazes me to see all that God has done in my own life and in so many of your lives. I know that God has me here for His purposes. I want to be the best possible steward of this ministry but also of my time with Him, with Greg, with my children and with every part of my life.
I care very, very much about each of you. I want to be able to personally respond, comment, and walk with each of you. I wish I could personally mentor every wife who wanted me to. I know how few godly wife mentors there are right now, and it breaks my heart. Reality is that the blog has grown so much that I could easily spend over 12 hours per day at this point just emailing wives individually who want to email me every day. Obviously, emailing 12 hours/day every single day is not something I can do.
I don’t have all the answers every wife needs.
I am not the key.
More than my advice, what each of us need is God’s Spirit being in control in our own hearts. As we seek Him wholeheartedly, fully submit to Him and repent of every sin He reveals to us… He will empower us to live in obedience to Himself and He will give us the wisdom we need for each situation by His Spirit and His Word.
Here is my plan right now:
- I plan to post once a week for the rest of the summer.
- When school starts, I may post twice a week, I will be praying for God’s wisdom and direction and consulting with Greg about that, as well.
- When comments start to get very numerous – I may not address every comment – but focus on the people who are hurting, who are confused or who really need a response. I am SO thankful for all of your comments. I love how you encourage, pray for and bless our sisters (and brothers) in Christ. You are ALWAYS welcome to comment and welcome on my blog. I love seeing all of the discussion. So, please know your comments are welcome and I love to read them!
- I need to depend more on some of the other wives who have been around the block a few times with these issues of growing spiritually and growing as a godly wife. I will need your input and help with some of the commenters who are discouraged, depressed, frustrated, lost and feeling hopeless. I can’t thank you enough for the way you love, encourage, pray for and support each other here!
- I am going to have more limits on the amount of time I can spend on comments than I have had in the past.
- There is just no way I can individually mentor wives or have an email ministry in addition to the blogs. It makes me so sad. But, right now, that is not what God is calling me to focus on. I will try to be as available as I can be on the blog.
- I may need to take other blogging breaks in the future and will do so if/when necessary.
I learned a LOT over these past few weeks. I am able to see some areas where I need to grow and where I am very weak. I still have thousands of miles to go on this journey myself! Greg was able to open up more about what he wants and what he sees. I have been asking him what he wants me to change and what he sees that I need to stop or start doing. I have been open to his leading. But he hasn’t been saying much – until the past few weeks. I am SO THANKFUL that he was willing to be open and honest and transparent and say what he wants and needs. WOOHOO!!!!!!
It was painful. But I needed to hear what he had to say.
Greg shared some things with me from his perspective like:
- I’m very easy to please, which I can understand makes it difficult (for you to know what I think and what I want).
- It’s nice if you are able to sleep. That’s something you’ve done much, much better at the last few weeks. You’ve been doing too much. That is obvious from how much better you have been sleeping. Comments are really what seems to be causing your biggest problems. You feel like you need to answer every one and answer them right away.
- Every comment is not an emergency. Only read comments when you have time to respond. You don’t need to respond to every comment. (From April – once I read a comment, I can’t sleep because I am thinking about what I want to say. Not in a “stressed” way, but just in an “I can’t close that window on my computer screen” kind of way.)
- Is a 2000 word comment from you to someone on the blog something you can really do?
- I’d like you to spend more time writing books when the kids are back in school. You can sleep at night when you are writing a book.
- I like it when you clean a little, not like a maniac (From April, I went a bit crazy the first few days I was offline with organizing and cleaning!! Oops!)
- I definitely think our family should come above the blog (From April, I asked him to expand on what that would mean in detail, very helpful.)
- What you have been doing is a little bit too much blog for me.
- It’s hard for me to say, “Don’t go help someone who is hurting.”
- What I want for you is to be healthy and balanced. You’re kind of like an elephant on a seesaw. I think just cutting back to a healthy number of blog posts will make a big difference.
- Sometimes I feel like you think my time is not as important as your time.
But I needed to hear his honest assessment.
I am very grateful for Greg’s leadership and am seeking to honor him and what he has asked of me.
The past month has been very good. I relaxed some. I slept more. I spent a lot of time evaluating my life and my motives. I had the chance to work more in the pharmacy. I got to help at Bible School at my church. I got to do a lot of things with our children and with Greg. The past 4 weeks felt like SUMMER!
Today I will be sitting with my 92 year old wonderful grandmother after her cataract surgery early this morning. I will get to comments later when I am able to. 🙂
I can’t wait to see all that we will all learn and how we will grow in Christ together. Thank you for being on this amazing journey with me.
I would love to hear what you have been learning and doing, too! I’m so excited to catch up with everyone! You are very precious to me. 🙂